#6: Miss Unavailable

As much as I’d love to keep positive about my love life, the universe keeps on giving me reasons not to. More often than not, I’m not attracted to those who like me and get attracted to those who can’t be mine. Yes, the typical emotionally unavailable guys. I’ve done my research on this and have read my share of online articles. After I ended up breaking up with the guy that I thought I truly loved, I was spending all day reading how-to-get-him chase-you-again crap. Ironically, I had no intention of getting back together with him. More than anything though, I wanted to find out where things went wrong. That was almost two years ago and as excruciating as it felt, I learnt how to let go. I’m now aware that I’m attracted to the wrong type of men; I now know that I need to be more cautious with my choices in men. I need to work on myself; find out what’s holding me back. But that’s another story for another time. What I’m most curious about at this very moment is why those who are attracted to me usually share some common traits. They’re really loving and caring but not in the most confident way. I mean, they’re really nice and all but it’s not from strength. They come off too strong and in most cases seem to me as creepy. They think long-term and don’t want to let go. They’re not out there to hook up and run; but they’re clingy and make me feel like I want to stay single for the rest of my life. There’s no chemistry, no fun, no excitement. It’s just disastrous. But why is that? Is it me? Is it them? Is it fate? Please not be.